flashback flashback

then I realized I've misunderstood
this wasn't what I meant to be
never thought this is how it be

flashback flashback
and
suddenly I want to pull back

rejection (acception)

because good bye hurts
while staying kills

denial is useless
confession is a shame

there is only confusion
of where
we
should stand.

I want to press the button

to hold the time stand still
so I canl let us staring each other
drown in our heartbeats
and roll along with the wave

no you never told a lie
no you never let me to
coz we know exactly there is no use telling lies
coz we know exactly what's in the hearts

and we know exactly that the heart won't lie

...

I want to press the button
to make the time stand still
so I can have you a little longer
than the time I don't even deserve to have
you have given

I want to press the button
and keep the time stand still
so I won't have to let go
your holding hand

I want to press the button
to have the time stand still
so I won't have to let go
you

...

no you never told a lie
no you never let me to
coz we know exactly there is no use telling lies
coz we know exactly what's in the hearts

and we know exactly that the heart won't lie.

I desperately need

a new life.





for this weeks sundayscribbling's prompt: new

Yes I’ve been there

Yes I met her frequently
Yes I walked with her that day
Yes I call her almost everyday
….
Yes I let her grow the feeling she had
Yes I let something happen between us

Forgive me
And I’ll cut it out from this second on
I swear.

***
for this week's sundayscribblings prompt: confession

what's so scary?

that would be
a thought of you leaving me.

***************

for this week's sundayscribblings' prompt: scary

celebrate my love....

celebrate my pain
celebrate my sorrow

celebrate how you deserted me
celebrate how you're gone
celebrate how you disappeared

celebrate how I've been left

rise your glass
and
toast.

*******

for this week's sundayscribblings prompt: celebrate

I came from nowhere....

flew with the wind as it took me by
fell down in the middle of reed field
no cover no shield

until rain fell
helped me grow day by day
my root my leaves my bud
so it bloomed
and for a while I looked beautiful

but everything has it time
like the time to finally be left
for I have been drooped
for I have lost the beauty

when it is no longer in bloom
dandelion is now in gloom....

you took my hand and brought me here

I held your hand and followed you here


you let go my hand and left me here
...
and I'm lost

I've been walking thousands miles away....

from you I want to be away
through wind and rain
through heartache and pain

my feet are bleeding
and so is my heart

but how can I kill the pain
if your shadow keeps remain?


*for this weeks sundayscribblings prompt, shadow*

I believe I can write

'coz if I didn't
I'd never even
finish a sentence.


for this weeks sundayscribblings prompt: I believe...

I thought you were soft

I thought you would be smooth
I thought you would do it gently
I thought you would explore me tenderly

but then....
I knew instantly
you are wild.

you are amazing...,

why do you think so?
because you are
what's so amazing about me?

your passion, and your style....

any girl would have fallen in love with you easily

any boy would have never had a thought of me

but you saw in me what they didn’t
and you gave to me what they wouldn’t

nine years together
would it last forever?

for the love in you
I love you.

…………

kau teman, kau abang, kau kekasih, kau pacar… kau cinta.
kau kasih, kau sayang, kau rindu, kau gemas… kau cinta.
kau teduh, kau damai, kau tenang, kau sabar… kau cinta.

kau peredam setiap ledakan
kau penghangat dalam dingin
kau penyejuk dalam panas

pagi
siang
sore
malam

gerimis
hujan
badai
panas
gersang

hiasan kehidupan sepanjang bersama
yang masih kuharap selamanya
mengarungi lagi lebih banyak lagi

setiap badai menguatkan
setiap guncangan mengukuhkan

genggam aku lebih erat lagi.

200908

give me

my coffee

an espresso
so

I can drown myself
in its bitterness

and I'll confuse myself
is it the coffee or my life?

to know or not to know?

because knowing is hurting
but I can not stop finding
out
….
I want to just close my eyes to everything
just as long as you say that everything
is okay
but is it my fault to seeing
things
that has made me so uncomfortable?


0209

see you ....

see you too...,
but how?
when?
where?

someway
someday
somewhere...

who are you?

one I never knew

I noticed you looking at me but I didn't care
all I saw was a man in long messy hair

you came toward and sat by me
still I didn't realize we were meant to be

slowly
you opened my eyes to thing I never thought would happen
doubtfully
I tried to accept but still always be frighten

but how can I not thank the Lord
who let me be there the day we first talked

and I'm glad, to have a simple way to get
knowing you
ten worthy minutes, the day we first met
and continued

that's how I met you

can you hear me

crying out?
I LOVE YOU ….

pergilah

aku tidak akan ke mana-mana. tapi aku tidak bisa menahanmu, kalau kau ingin pergi

aku tidak bisa pergi, karenanya kuminta kau untuk pergi

maaf, aku tidak akan pernah

kumohon

kalau kau tidak bisa, kenapa kau pikir aku bisa?



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